None of us asked for this.
None of us want this.
None of us knows how to stop what’s happening from happening again.
Yet, even though you might feel powerless, I assure you that you still have the capacity to shift back to center and stop letting the madness of the current media/political mess take you down. You only need to do one thing.
And yes, I’m gonna make you keep reading to find out what that one thing is. Because sound bites don’t change hearts and minds – but story does.
The State of the State
Many of you know that my coaching work was founded in my training as an intuitive. Many of you have sat in front of me in great vulnerability for intuitive readings. Others have been part of the courses and 1:1 work that carries the imprint of my energetic perspective on love and intimacy.
No matter how you’ve arrived at these words, I’m going to share with you today an intuitive perspective that explains why you are so unsettled and searching for anything to fix what’s happening.
As a shock to no one, the energetic state of affairs in the world is shaky. Unstable. Jumping from one thing to the next. That’s dangerous from an energetic point of view, because this kind of behavior requires hosts, and thus it takes from us more than it gives. That explains why everyone is so depleted and raw. That explains why everyone is so quick to put false hopes in every person who speaks with authority, without ever finding out if they have truly earned their wisdom.
But in my 30 years as a seer, I can tell you it hasn’t always been like this.
The Origin of Disembodiment
I started noticing the shift back in 2016, when – suddenly – the clients who were coming to me for intuitive energy work were bathed in fear. Some of the fear they could name. But a lot of it was just there. Suddenly.
I saw that their energy bodies were ungrounded, meaning that most people were not holding or circulating energy in their pelvises. This vital, juicy part of them was shuttered and empty. (Not surprisingly, their relationships and sexual expression were in shambles.)
I found their energy higher up. In the head and shoulders. The ones who were practiced at meditation or other techniques to align with love were still connected to their hearts. But below the belt, almost nothing. It reminded me of the way we jump up when we see a poisonous spider at our feet. Fear makes us lose our stability.
If you look closely, the poisonous spiders are – energetically – everywhere. They are the daily, seemingly small acts of violence we’re exposed to, combined with the normalized terror of the big ones we see every couple of months.
Outrage and Exhaustion
Not one of the clients I have supported to recenter and recirculate energy in the past 6-8 years has ever asked to witness the micro and macro violence we collectively take in daily. Yet whenever we open our phones, thumbs ready for a good scroll through cat memes and how-to videos, it’s there. In schools and churches. Movie theatres and university campuses. In comments made by bots.
The violence is also echoed on ego hours called the “news” and social media accounts of people who somehow – suddenly – gained the title of leader.
This violence has an effect. It has made us believe that our neighbors are the problem. That anyone different is wrong. We’ve been taught to grow a garden of outrage and throw its fruits at people whose life experiences have taught them something else than our life experiences have taught us.
Holding outrage in the body is torturous. This is why we fling it around, publicly shunning those who don’t align 1000% with how we see things. We’ve been taught that pushing people out of our circle, our inheritance of wisdom, our networks of support will make us feel better.
Or, in the case of Charlie Kirk or the myriad examples of protest in the form of a bullet, we’ve been taught to do far worse than shun who we don’t agree with.
Odd Gratification
I won’t lie. I felt oddly gratified when I heard of Charlie Kirk’s death. Finally, my ego said, one less person shooting off their mouth and hurting people I love. But I couldn’t get comfortable in that position. Something had changed. The veil lifted, and I remembered that cheering violence is not what I stand for.
That’s not to say that reparations aren’t due to those who inflict pain to line their pockets. That’s karma. But if I choose to clap when someone gets the axe, I have to remember that I don’t get to decide who is the next victim of this tactic. We are all capable of hurting people. A gun won’t stop that truth. The only thing that will is an allowance for a modicum of fucking up and the right to clean up after we’ve made a mess.
What came out of this return to sanity (aka, leading with love) was a desire to share most emphatically that I believe this pattern of outrage and exhaustion we’ve been subjected to for the past several years is intentional. I don’t claim to know the intention. But I do know that it doesn’t take an intuitive eye to see that the pattern benefits certain people on top when those of us who just want to live fulfilling lives are expending all our creative energy writing diss tracks to each other in the comments.
The trouble with knowing that this outrage/exhaustion game is intentional is that if you lack the tools to do anything about it, it can feel even worse. It can create more outrage. More numbness. More walls that prevent us from receiving help even when we are drowning and desperate. More disembodiment that has us choosing which side’s blood we want spilled.
And that’s not all – this disconnection has very real implications in the body. When we feel terrorized and pissed off, we jump out of the vulnerable pelvis and turn away from the life force, the creativity, the holy juice that lives and moves there.
Just like the pattern I started noticing back in 2016. Suddenly.
What to Do Next
I promised you in the opening hook to this post that there is still one thing you can do to shift back to center. And I’m about to deliver. But I’m not going to make you buy something to get it. I offer it as the wisdom I’ve gained from my journey returning to my womb, my pussy, my center, despite all the pressure to check out.
To get out of this cycle of outrage and exhaustion you must connect with your desire.
Yeah, that’s it. Simply noticing I want is a step away from the disembodiment and toward the action your nervous system is pleading you to take.
It’s literally that simple. I want ginger tea. I want a walk in the sunshine. I want to open a savings account with a minimum balance of $5,000. I want to ride in a submarine. I want to organize a neighborhood clean up and invite the family with the campaign signs I don’t like.
This wanting is no small thing. Not because you’re going to manifest everything. But because knowing what you want allows you to walk in that direction. And if there’s one thing that gets a person out of an anxiety loop faster than Lorazepam, it’s taking small actions aligned with desire.
Any desire will do. It doesn’t have to be huge. It doesn’t have to be public. It only has to be aligned with what you long to do.
Like Dorothy found out, you’ve had the power to go home all along. Perhaps you just needed the journey to remind you of it.
Here’s more to come if you want it:
Feminine Wisdom: Acting on Embodied Desire
October 1, 11 am PT
Free to attend
